Steroids
A heads up – not what you are thinking. Medical steroids only. After many years of breathlessness. asthma and now a horrible cough and congested chest I visited my marvellous fabulous doctor to ask for antibiotics.
I haven’t been able to breathe properly for years and thus any attempt at exercise fails miserably with me ending in tears. The shame of not being able to rely on your body because of your own lack of discipline is truly contemptible. Then making an attempt and failing and giving up again for another 12 months has been my motto.
Previously a swimmer, then a daily 4-5km power walker pre kids, I stopped everything when I fell pregnant. I put on 36 kilos with my first son and still carry it. I expected to ‘lose it all when you breast feed’ – ha I was starving every minute of the day and ate like a horse. My pre pregnancy weight was 63kg and I haven’t got within 30 kilos of that since 1997.
Pre Children a fridge was purely a vessel for wine, camembert and pâté. I smoked and I exercised and food was for fuel or social events. For the 18 years since food has become paramount in my home. It became a measure of my success as a mother and a barometer to the boys well being. It’s been my currency since 1997.
My blood tests are perfect with low cholesterol, no sign of diabetes, good red and white levels,(funny that red…white) so I have no need to worry about any of that. My BP is always low. But my breathing, asthma and excess weight need to be addressed and it came to the fore this week with the ‘cold/flu’ I was experiencing. So, I’m now on a health plan, no antibiotics but instead X-rays, scans, spirometers, and….steroids to open the airways. This way slowly I can drop some weight by exercising without feeling I’m going to keel over. And I’m very very excited.
I will tell you in another blog the difference between being slim and overweight in today’s society – its a novel.
Today, after 4 days of ‘roids, I’m worried I’m starting to show some masculine traits. Yesterday I craved bacon and eggs for brekkie and roast for dinner. Saturday I had a beer. And now I’m watching a car movie – need for speed – and enjoying it. But the coughing has improved, I am breathing easier and as it was only a five day course I’m hoping my new found traits will disappear this week.
I’m looking forward to seeing what happens over the next few months and the idea of getting my physical pride and strength back excites me enormously! Stay tuned.
